So tomorrow’s my day. It’s been 365 days since December 4th last year and from today it will be 366 days until the next one. It’s the day where I get older, my birthday.
I remember when I was younger I would be so excited for my birthday. Now I’m still excited, but I’m not as excited for a few reasons.
First and most importantly, I’m going to be another year older. I really dislike thinking about this part. The more time I have gone through is less time that I still have to go through. Have you ever heard the song “100 years?” That’s how I feel about it. You only have 100 years to live, and by tomorrow I would have gone through 15 of them.
The second reason is that I’m not ready to get older. Getting older requires responsibility and maturity. I don’t yet have enough of either to get older. Eventually I’m going to have to do more work in less time, have more to worry about, and have to make a living. Those require responsibility, which I do not have.
As I get older I also realize that I don’t need as many things. I’m starting to think that I don’t need anything for my birthday, which makes the day not as exciting as it used to. Eventually it might get to the point where it will be just the 338th day of the year instead of anything special.
However, there are things that don’t make it so bad. Coincidentally they’re a part of the bad parts of it.
First is getting older. Getting older means that I can eventually drive, get a job, or anything else like that. I can get an income, raise a family, or whatever else I want to do. I also get more choices and I play a larger part in directing my life.
That’s all I can think of for now. I want to get this up before tomorrow so I’ll edit it when I think of more to write.
What are you, 50 years old? Your supposed to be excited about getting older. Like my mom always says, "focus on one step at a time, not the whole thing, and it's less intimidating." Cherish the fact that you can do more now and do not focus on the fact that you may have only 85 years left. I mean, if you want to continuously think about what you no longer have, you will lose sight of what you are now getting. Think about getting through school. Then college. Then getting a job. Then getting a house. Then getting married. Then having kids. Then retiring. And once you have gone through all those things, one at a time, then look at what you have left. But also what you have done. Your life has barely begun. Don't focus on its end.
ReplyDeleteI liked how you said that as you get older, your responsibilities increase, but so do your privileges. As for not wanting gifts, that's just natural. You are feeling content with what you have and unless you find something you really need, the generic gift of cash is fine. But do not feel that your birthday is no longer exciting. It's the one day of the year where everything revolves around you, so to speak.
Anyway, Happy (Very Belated/Early) Birthday!
Hopefully this won't spark something, butI didn't say that it wasn't exciting. I said it was getting less exciting.
ReplyDeleteThank you!
Whatever. ***Edit: But do not feel that your birthday is less exciting.*** There, is that better?
ReplyDeleteI cannot help what excites me and what doesn't, but I guess it's fine nonetheless
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